Well, Christmas has come at last! I'm just downloading all the stuff I need to install my new Adobe CS4 Master Suite, then I'll have to set up my brand new, lab-quality All-in-One Canon printer after that, probs touch up/ draw some pictures on Photoshop, try to learn the programming language in Flash etc, talk to my bf on MSN or he might call (I hope he calls...^^), scrape my hyper baby sister off the roof, make some sushi (I got molds and stuff for making sushi rolls and stuff! Yay! All I need now is a Bento box...), maybe start reading one of my new Terry Pratchett books, and just generally relax and enjoy! I also have one last present to get at dinner tonight and that's me til my birthday...wait, no...Valentine's Day! ^^ The day after our 3 month anniversary (how cool is that! ) lol! ^^ Ace!

So much has changed in the past 3 months...new job, new course, new friends, new teachers...I have a boyfriend who adores me and would do anything for me (And I'm ecactly the same with him), parents who respect me and who are being so accommodating and reasonable it's unbelievable, I'm becoming more confident, I'm happier now than I've ever felt before, I'm more relaxed now and I'm just...

I feel like *me* again. It's been so long since I've felt like this that...I guess I forgot what it felt like until now. I'm me again. Not some "cowerin' timerous (not quite wee) beastie" who was always afraid of intruding, saying the wrong thing, just being somewhere with people in case I felt invisible again.

Now, I can talk for myself, put forward my ideas, listen to others and be listened to by others. I'm becoming the leader of groups without being asked or asking and...I guess one of the things that really shows it is the fact that I want to sing again. But not even in a choir or with other people in general. Just me, my voice, and I just want to sing.

I've had "Dream Catch Me" by Newton Faulkner playing nigh on non-stop on Youtube for the past few days now and I've even been singing to it at full volume with my parents able to hear me and I didn't care...Okay, so I had my earphones in and it wasn't until they came into the room and talked to me that I realised that they were able to hear me a lot of the time but most of the time I'd start singing straight after we had finished talking because I didn;t care if they heard me. Sometimes I wanted them to...and I feel fantastic for it.

I smile all the time now, I giggle (And I rarely ever giggled at school) and, for god's sake, I've even been looking for dresses and skirts to wear...ME...In a Skirt! And I want to get one and wear it! O_O OMG! lol! ^^ I guess that's what happens when your life seems to be going from good to better...^-^

So, Merry Christmas everyone, and A Happy New Year too. I hope you all have as good a time as I am! ^^

Oh, and if you're reading this, Asbo, That's all true...read the rest of my journals if you want to see how I felt and stuff. Cause I don't have anything to hide from you. ^^ Merry Christmas, hero!

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FOOTNOTE: TP = Terry Pratchett